Hello, Seasonal Depression!

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3 min read

Plants

Alarm rings

Depressed brain: it’s too early for this

Laundry: good morning. here I sit, unfolded.

Reptilian brain: exercize?

Boss: You’re late again

Lunch: you probably shouldn’t be eating me at 10am

Depressed brain: maybe i should quit

Financial brain: you need a place to live though

Dishes: please don’t leave me overnight again

Laundry: wanna cuddle? Since I’m permanently stuck on the left side of your bed?

Reptilian brain: maybe fud?

Depressed brain: seems like a lot of effort

High brain: HOT CHEETOS

Boss: We had a callout. You’re covering.

Therapist: You can talk to your psychiatrist to apply for leave from work.

Anxious brain: Will she believe me though? I feel like no one believes I’m depressed. Also, she’s still pissed I asked her the difference between a nurse practitioner and a full on psychiatrist. Guess which one she is.

Boyfriend: what are our Thanksgiving plans?

Depressed brain: get your mom her birthday present; she’s already gonna get it so late

Financial brain: but nothing too expensive, so you can eventually break your lease and leave this place for good

Space Heater: i broke. Again.

Reptilian brain: maybe slep?

Nightmares: maybe not.

Boss: You’re on call this weekend.

Antidepressants: at least you got dressed today.

Laundry: it just took you forever to find your socks in this pile.

Black mold growing on door window: you should look into that sore throat

Vinegar solution: I can help get rid of that mold

Depressed brain: just let me scroll a little longer

Boss: there’s a hold on all time-off requests. No, we’re not hiring more people to help.

“Psychiatrist”: Nurse practitioners are fully able to prescribe medication! You’re already at a pretty high dose though…

Insurance: we’ll chip in $3

Target checkout employee: will you need to be able to access these Hot Cheetos for the ride home?

Depressed brain: Is it that obvious?

Coworker: What’s wrong?

Me: Just spacing out

Internal me: thinking about quitting again.

Financial brain: you have no savings

Logical brain: just apply for jobs while keeping your current job

Depressed brain: or you can continue using the willpower you have left to do the bare minimum to survive

Reptilian brain: maybe write?

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